I'm such a bad blogger. - Monica Hayworth

I am such a bad blogger.
I’ve been stalking my own blog today and I’ve been slacking
extremely. I just want to apologize to
everyone. Life has been hectic with the
holidays coming up. Let’s talk about
some stuff that’s been going on since my last post two days ago (oh em g I’m
really horrible). First of all it
snowed. This is the first official
snowfall of the season. I always
consider it official when the driving conditions aren’t the greatest, that’s
how you know it’s really snowed. I
honestly think snow on the trees is absolutely beautiful but I think it’s also
the most annoying thing. You have to
shovel, drive in the snow (which if you have never driven in snow it can
actually be extremely dangerous), you have to clean off your car, and it’s just
downright cold. The upside is it looks
really pretty, like in a movie, you have all of your winter sports, and well
the dogs love the snow. They do one of
these “Ok, what the heck is this stuff.
It’s cold and then it melts, ok this is kind of cool, but should I get
ready to attack just in case? OH MY GOSH
WOOOO RUNNING IN THE SNOW! BEST DAY
EVER!” That’s literally what I think
goes through both of the dogs minds. It’s
so cute because the little white fluff ball (he’s a maltese) gets lost. We can only find him because of his black
nose and eyes, and because Lilly tries to play with him in the snow.

Another thing that happened two days ago was my VP bought
all of us ladies beautiful silk scarves for Christmas, but you already know
that if you’re following me on the gram cough @monisia87 cough. The scarf I got was perfect because even
though the other ladies got pink ones (which is my favorite color) I got this
awesome blue/teal one with an equestrian design. It fits me perfectly with the style. As Ace Ventura would say “Like a glove,” even
though we aren’t talking about fitting me in size because well it’s a scarf.

So of course I need to upload an outfit post.

Jacket: North Face
{Sports Authority}

Top: Target

Scarf: H&M {old}

Boots: UGG Australia
{Saks}

If you’ve been following my blog or you’ve looked at the
other pages on here, the one titled Dedication is a really special one to
me. I decided to dedicate my blog to my
friend who passed away almost a year ago.
He was very special to me and he lost his battle to cancer on January 5th. He completely changed my life, and this blog
was the start of something new and something I’m proud of that I would have
loved to share with him because I know he’d probably be more excited about it
than me. I decided to start this new
tradition. I started my full time job
last year on December 17th (seriously the best Christmas present
ever and such a blessing) and my friend was so proud of me. We actually went to a local diner (yes, I’m
from Jersey and yes, we go to diners) and celebrated with a nice plate of
chocolate chip pancakes with maple syrup, fresh strawberries, and whipped
cream. Surprisingly he ate more than I
did which is weird because that’s my favorite diner food EVER. Well that was the last time I saw him, the
day that we celebrated. I decided that
every year on December 17th I’m going to make a huge plateful of
chocolate chip pancakes with maple syrup, fresh strawberries, and whipped
cream. I saw a video on YouTube that was
about a 17 year old boy who lost his battle to cancer and his story is so
similar to my friends. Both of them
lived their life and both of them could put a smile on anyone’s face. I think Dan was sending me a sign to remind
me about his story and to remind me to stop being so upset that he’s gone it’s
been a rough few days for me. I still
can’t talk about him without shedding a tear even if it’s when no one is
looking. Every time that I get sad or
mad I always think of Dan. I think of
how he used to always say that life is too short to be negative. He knew he could die at any moment but he
didn’t care, he kept on living and he kept on fighting. When I watched that YouTube video the last
part of the video is something Dan would say.
The interviewer asked him how do you want to be remembered. He answered “I want to be remembered as the
guy who went down fighting but never really lost.” When I heard that I heard Dan’s voice saying
it. He changed my cold hearted self into
the person I am today and I can never thank him enough for making me feel as
special as he did. You will be forever
missed kiddo.

Oh, and if you have time I suggest you watch the video I
talked about. It’s a little long, but
worth every second. Oh and you may need
a tissue box and someone to hug afterwards.
I cried and then went and gave my mom a big hug.